I can't tell you how wonderful it was to see our precious baby move its arms and legs, yawn several times followed by puffy cheek faces, watch as hiccups shook it's tiny body, and see its little bottom as it curled up so peaceful and safe inside me. The baby is beautiful, almost a carbon copy of Grace and Abigail (hey, if it ain't broke . . .). I will never stop being amazed at the wonder of how a new life is formed. Fearfully and wonderfully made.
This pregnancy is so different from the others. With Carly, I was young and blissfully unaware of what it meant to have a baby. With Grace, I was excited and nervous and much more aware of the change a baby would bring to our family. Abigail was a difficult pregnancy and I often had negative thoughts about her arrival. That year surrounding her pregnancy and birth was a dark time in our marriage. So far, with the exception of my standard morning sickness/confined to bed period, this pregnancy has been easy. I am happy and looking forward to meeting baby, but not so anxious that I'm not enjoying carrying baby under my heart. I think this baby will fit into our family easily. I'm prepared, experienced, and ready to tackle all the joys and difficulties that a new baby brings. My eyes are wide open, and more importantly, so is my heart.
We may have had other plans, but God's plan exceeds anything we could dream. He knows us intimately and fulfills the desires of our heart.
The only regret I have is that my family is not a part of our joy. If you are so inclined, please pray for peace of mind that I can lean on God completely. Family may forsake us, but God is always faithful.
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